I've been thinking about treading water all day. Earlier I left a comment, in my arrogant, self-assured way, on another blogger's post asking her if she felt she was treading water. When I read her post I felt strongly that, although she was writing about being dissatisfied with her life, she was refusing to take any action to change anything. Kinda like treading water. Why is it that it is easy to see patterns of behavior in other people, but so darn hard to figure out your own?
So instead of working on the grant I'm supposed to be writing for a local school, here I am reflecting on treading water. Retirement has been a little like floating down a gentle river. I bob along, quite enjoying the ride, going wherever the river takes me. I don't know where the current is taking me; I'm just treading water. I have done nothing to guide my passage on the journey.
When I was working it was important to have goals. I was always reaching for the next thing. I was always taking a class or completing some certification and building my resume. It was important to move forward.
In retirement I haven't had external pressure to move forward. Today I asked myself if, just perhaps, it was okay to not move forward but to just bob along and tread water. Would I be happy with no goals, no direction? Is it enough just to enjoy? Is an occasional dynamite blog post or witty comment in the forum enough? Perhaps reading, writing, and building my extensive knowledge of television is enough? Mixed in between vacations to tropical beaches, cruises and trips to see the grandchildren of course. Or, maybe the bigger question is, can I enjoy retirement without a sense of accomplishment?
Okay, I need one of you self-assured and arrogant readers out there to give me the obvious insight I can't see from my perspective.